A lollie Birthday!

Lorelei's birthday party was Hello Kitty themed. She has loved hello kitty ever since we took her to the store in Washington Square Mall while visiting with Nana. I will never forget how wide her eyes got and how her body shook as she said "oooh oooh oooh". Since then she has acquired two hello kitty's prior to this party. Now she has necklace, banner, and forever documented cake. :)

 Chick-fil-A was the desired dinner choice for this little cookie. I gave her the choice between chocolate milk or apple juice. She always picks juice over chocolate milk. Her brother on the other hand is quite the opposite :p

please excuse our ghetto wall. We are currently patching holes that were left from the previous owners.

No chocolate cake was left behind with this junk food eater. Her favorite food is fruit snacks and cookies. I get asked for them multiple times a day. Whether she gets them or not is another story.

I had to add this picture of Riley because he was so perturbed about Lorelei's Birthday. He could not open her presents or blow out her candle. He also had a time out at one point for not letting Lorelei play with her new toys.  Life is really tough when you are 3. 

Luckily she was not phased by his attitude and enjoyed her little night of fame.

Last pregnancy post I promise. :)

I went in for my last ultrasound on Friday which confirmed the heartbeat officially stopped. It is the hardest thing going in each week and watching a heart stop beating. As any mother knows that is the best part of pregnancy. Hearing or seeing that beat is a reassuring thing. That was the hardest part of this miscarriage not to mention how poorly people in the medical field are with their bed side manners. Monday I talked with my doctor and decided to take a labor inducing drug. I figured avoiding a procedure would be best. However the cramping yesterday was in no way fun. You feel utterly alone throughout the process. On the other side I am grateful that it is coming to a close. I thought emotionally I would be back to normal after the baby passed, but as I went to my calling today (an organization within my church) I realized that physically I'm healing, but that the emotional side is not quite there. It's amazing to me how human nature works. It doesn't matter what stage your pregnancy is in, you are still loosing a baby. Luckily there are some happy things coming around the bend. In a week I pick up my parents for Lorelei and Riley's Birthday's. Until then I am going to drown myself in an inside house paint job. I get so much joy from painting rooms. It makes me so happy and giddy.

My silver lining through past 4 weeks. 

 

 

Unfortunately Lorelei has her two year old molars already making their appearance. Lets hope they let up in time for her Birthday. My Riley on the other hand is just too photogenic and we are baffled as to where it came from.

My latest update.

Monday was not a day of great news. The babies heart is weaker and the baby did not grow within a week like it should have. It is still a 6 week and 1 day old fetus. Today I had Brandon go into the appointment with me. The doctor was not going to tell me today the pending doom because the heart was still beating. However, I have known for a long time that this baby is not going to make it. We discussed the pending options that will fallow in the next couple of weeks. I have decided (unless life threatening) that we wait until the babies heart stops and see if my body naturally aborts the baby. If my body does not take the natural course then I will have a D&C. The doctor told me that for some reason the chromosomes didn't align right and that s why this baby is not making the cut. She actually told me that my case was rare. The fact that the baby did not develop for a while and then did with the progesterone but stopped again happens in her practice once in a year. I guess in some ways it's exciting to be one of the statistics, but a very rough journey to go through. So now we just wait it out and keep going on with life as much as possible. I do, however, have to see the ultrasound technician again this week to verify the heart beat. Thank Heavens for the two little cuties who keep me going.